chieflilhorse asked:

How's your evening going....

MaRiahontas: BeautifulTragedy ♰ Answer:

It’s okay

My tumblr blog have been focused on my divorce. I know I need to lighten it up.
Ways I can do that… Well I’m going to write about my son Reyes and my daughter Ava.
The journey and with me while we get through our hardship along with adventures we can share together.
Having a place to not call home is hard. But on the bright side it’ll bring us where we need to go.
I know moving place to place with a 3 year-old and a soon to be newborn is crazy, but it’s our situation. Mainly mine, but I have no choice. But to move on and do what I can. I have a job for now till next month. I have no car… But I hope I get one soon along with a job. I have enough money to survive till the divorce is finalized, which I’m not going to sign till I get my Schooling done. Which might be a year and half. I’m not sure. But I’m praying that things fall into place for the three of us.

I seriously wish I can go back to Georgia. That’s all I want. I hate New Mexico… I hate it here. I want to go back Georgia so bad…

I’m here eating carrots and I got myself vegan chicken nuggets. Boomy loves them. She kicks hard for my vegetarian diet. :)

I’m done.
From here on out, I can’t.

Mind games…

I’m seriously tired of feeling this way.

If he wants to Skype, I can’t cause it to much stress and sadness in my heart even while I give birth to my baby. Ava going to struggle with Reyes and I, I’m okay with that as long as we’re together.

Even when he comes back before November or baby’s birth… I can’t.

I’m not sure where we’ll be because we don’t have a home.

mariahontasbeautifultragedy:

I’m not really sure If I made him cry when I didn’t say I’ll miss you. 

I couldn’t say it - it’s not like I don’t care. 

I just don’t like saying good bye… especially to a person who doesn’t love and care about me as much I have. And who is leaving the babies n I little family.

I wonder… What happen to him- when we first met. He truly believed “family always comes first than everything else”

We’re his family… 

Was.

mariahontasbeautifultragedy:

I’m not really sure If I made him cry when I didn’t say I’ll miss you.

I couldn’t say it - it’s not like I don’t care.

I just don’t like saying good bye… especially to a person who doesn’t love and care about me as much I have. And who is leaving the babies n I little family.

I wonder… What happen to him- when we first met. He truly believed “family always comes first than everything else”

We’re his family…

Was.